How frustrating it is to choose between being a potato with numb clit or having 100,000 bad thoughts per minute.

I spent the year treating myself with other classes of medication and everything felt so different. It was bad, I felt everything a lot.

I have spent the last few months crying, beating myself up, saying I was going to kill myself. I have only taken a few days of lexapro 5, (I am going to increase it to 10) and I feel much calmer and my mind is a little quieter. Depression is there, but much less agitated. But now I'm feeling like a sleepy potato, with difficulty having orgasms and no motivation. I should look on the bright side and be happy I guess, but it seems like my brain is already losing that ability again.