Any long-term or life-long sufferers towards one LO?

Hi lovely people 🙌😊feeling a bit embarrassed and hopeless right now, particularly with just how long I’ve held on to my LO. I met mine 16 YEARS AGO at college 🤦 🤕

I’m wondering if there’s any people who’ve also struggled very long-term, towards the same person. I’m sure there are, I just don’t see posts of that nature that often (most I see are 3 yrs max. per LO).

As you can imagine there’s a certain shame and feeling of ruining your life when we are talking decades…

I feel so sad that so many years have been wasted with this person looming around my psyche. And we never dated or even slept together.

NB: For reference, like many others on here, my LO was initially - and periodically over the years - ‘obsessed’ with me. Even with guys I’ve dated or encountered since - I’ve never received romantic desire like that in my entire life (Towards my looks or what you might call essence as a female). Not even close.

So I rationalize that the initial love bombing I received as a teen - when my brain was still developing - is what fuels my L? Maybe? 🤷‍♀️Anyway, would love your thoughts and insights 🙌

TDLR; met my LO in college when I was 17… 16 yrs later not over it. Anyone else have a life-long LO?