I will never get over it.

I have been limerent some years past and it has caused me to be depressed and hopeless, but this year it has become an insurmountable mountain of misery. As soon as she noticed me being just a little too friendly she started ignoring and avoiding me. I don't blame her at all, because she is probably right to do this. But it has comforted me in my belief that I am less than nothing to someone like her, and that she would be better off if I didn't exist.

Yes, I have gone to therapy. Yes, I know I am seeking the affection that I didn't get as a child. Yes, I know it shouldn't mean much, how just one person sees you. No, I don't believe she's truly perfect in every way.

But I am abnormally attached to her. And she is so, so cold towards me.

I am not worthy of even a second of her time. I hate myself for being worthless.

And I can't live like this.

I'm miserable whenever I think of it, and I think of it all the time.