Confession I need this to get out of my chest

I created a reddit account for this. I need this to get our of my chest. For many years I am mocking those "weird" people who are calling fictional characters "waifu/husbando". Not only that I am also looking down on KPOP fans who are so obsess with their idols that they are calling them their husband. Obviously it is all in my head only because it is inappropriate to say it in their face.

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But now, for the first in my life, I think I fell in love with a 2D fictional character. I cant get him out of my head, and even thou I read the manwha more than 30x I am not getting sick of it. I am even wishing he is real or I wish I am the one who is his leading man in the story. I always wanted him to have happiness. I changed my phone wallpaper to him as well and every night before I fell asleep I am dreaming a what if scenario where me and him are existing together in a universe.

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I am talking about lee geom of missing love. I cant get him out of my head for unknown reason. I read tons of BL and ordinary manga where there are lots of good looking characters like Jinx, JJK etc but he is the the only one that I became obsess with. I know it will fade someday but not that soon especially with his kind of feelings