Unable to masturbate and it’s lowering my self esteem

I just had a long conversation with another female friend about masturbation and it only confirmed how I am unable to. I can’t be bothered to explain but please see other post on my profile.

I feel like a failure. Of course this isn’t the only bloody thing but boy it contributes. I don’t even have the simple joy that everyone else has. It makes me want to stab and destroy my useless genitalia.

Shame cause I’ve been getting better recently. Now I just feel like shit. I politely told my friend I was angry and left the text conversation, so at least I feel I haven’t hurt anyone else in the process.