Birthday anxiety

Is it only me ama do you guys get some anxiety when your birthday is around the corner..

Like Kuna tu ile feeling unakaaa unareflect on how life has been unaona vitu huja-achive unaona tu failures zako at the end unafeel ni kama growing older isn't something to be psyched up for...

Ama masaa zingine unaanza kuimagine how the next chapter of your life will be like and instead of kufurahi unafeel tu down

My birthday is coming up and surprisingly everyone around me is so psyched up for it meanwhile nafeel tu it's not worth it

But either way I am grateful for the far that God has brought me ni wengi hawaonangi their next birthday but here I am alive and well....shida ni hio kafeeling but I believe all will be fine ☺️