Did anyone get scared of being a parent because of their narc parents?

Pretty self explanatory but I never used to be scared of being a parent until I came to the realization my parents were narcs, I escaped their household and for the first time in 28 years, I have peace. My fiancè thinks I sound like I don’t want kids but I think the reality is that I haven’t ever had peace or my life to just me before, and it’s wonderful. I do want kids, but I’m scared of being my mother, or getting overstimulated and snapping at them. My mother and father made my house a war zone, and I’m terrified of messing my own kids up. For reference - I got out 4 months ago, and am still reeling from it all and dealing with them from a distance.

Does anyone have these fears? How did you overcome them?

AND how has parenting been for you??