Why do I hate my newborn?

I feel Iike a shitty FTM but I just don’t understand my child. She’s three weeks old soon to be four and she’s so fussy, gassy, refuses to sleep, super congested and I have a hard time getting anything done.

My husband went back to work so I have been doing it on my own. I feel so overwhelmed because I do all the changes and I pump because she sometimes refuses to latch.

Last night I got so angry with my newborn, she wouldn’t go back to sleep at 4 am and I just thought to myself I hate this kid.

I’m so conflicted because I don’t actually hate her but the sleep deprivation is too much and I’m so overwhelmed and anxious.

Is this baby blues or post partum depression?