This is embarrassing

I'm so glad I found this community because I genuinely feel so embarrassed about how I feel about my plushies. I'm probably going to delete this post after a while because if someone sees I'm going to be embarrassed 😔.

I only have 4, I have my spider, his name is Toby, and then I have 3 wolves (I think two were supposed to be huskies but I'm pretending they're baby wolves lol) Tide, Sandy and Eggshell. I like referring to them by their names and actual pronouns (so for Sandy, I'll call her she) but with people other than my best friend or like-minded people I call them "it" and I don't use their names because I'm so embarrassed. Especially with my mom, I'm 17 and I don't want to be seen as a child.

Yesterday Sandy's nose came off and I didn't notice for a couple of hours because I was sleeping and when I noticed then I wanted to cry because I felt so bad that she went hours missing her nose. I screwed it back on, and logically I know that she wasn't in pain or anything but I feel like it hurt.

I feel like they have personalities and feelings and I feel really bad whenever they "get hurt" or "get cold" or whatever, or if they're ignored. I'm 17 and I feel really embarrassed that I feel this way about my plushies.