hemorrhoid’s are my enemy

i’m already hemorrhoid prone and for some reason didn’t think about the hell that my life would become while pregnant. i’m only 5.5 weeks and i’m SUFFERING!!!!! my a**hole has its own heartbeat. and apparently this is only supposed to get worse??? this is not talked about enough lmao. between this, the waves of random gagging and my mood swings, i am over it lol. still feeling grateful to be pregnant but god damn