Cut off my parents 3 months ago and my enabler dad just texted me a photo of the snow in his back yard. The guilt is overwhelming.

My first thoughts were like oh my god he’s thinking of me, he misses me, he’s sorry, he wants to reconnect, I’m breaking his heart if I don’t respond!!

But he didn’t say any of that. He didn’t say anything at all. It’s just a text with a photo of the snow in his back yard.

The man never told me he loved me once in my whole life. He let my mother destroy me, and he was physically abusive himself. But I always kind of thought when it came down to it, he loved me and would want to have a relationship with me. But how would I know?

What a pitiful thing it is for me to feel so guilty about not responding when he’s giving me nothing. What a shame that I could even interpret this as a shred of hope for us. The guilt monster is eating me alive.