I regret sleeping with as many people as I have done

i (18f) am a hyper sexual person due to some childhood trauma regarding that area of my life. this has led to me losing my virginity at 13 and since then slept with 10 people. i’m not proud of it at all and out of all the things i could wish for, i’d wish to start my teenage years again to stop myself from dealing with things through sex. now i’m having to accept the consequences of my actions as it’s affecting a new potential relationship. my biggest regret is my sexual past and it’s kept me up thinking about it most nights. unfortunately i can’t change my past and i’m struggling to accept the fact that i can’t. i’ve changed my way of dealing with things because it’s only going to become a heavier weight on my shoulders.

usually i’d write this sort of thing in my journal but because i’m heavily judging myself already i guess i needs to rant to others because then i could at least have the right of judging myself this much or maybe find out i’m too harsh on myself