Done with this anorexia shit

Posting here cuz this is obviously Ed Recovery sub. But I don’t know a switch just flipped for me. I don’t know if this is how it is for others. But I just realized that I’m still miserable and dislike the way I look so why the hell am I torturing myself to remain underweight. I’m tired of fasting and thinking of these things 24/7. My whole like literally revolves around this. I quit laxatives a couple months ago. So I guess that was the start. It’s only been a couple weeks of eating normally and I feel so relieved but also my jeans are too tight already. I know everyone hates fats here and bring anorexic is contrarian. But at least they’re not miserable and I’m tired of this