I feel lost.

Me (23F) and the man I was dating (24M) have been dating for a year. Basically to make things kind of short, he kind of made me feel insecure. We are still dating not in a relationship, and we was being exclusive to each other. In January he said he was complimenting other women but he never complimented me. I said something about it and he says he doesn’t do it because men over use it. March, I celebrated his birthday all month and when I jumped into his car I found lashes. I started crying but he understood why, he said that it was from his cousins friend and that was it. April, he told me a coworker was doing his hair in his home (I’ve never been to his house at all so this made me upset.) he said I shouldn’t be upset cause his family was there. May, was our anniversary and he didn’t take time off work for it. But instead he took time off to go to the beach with his male friends..he said that he was mad at me and forgot to do so. June, he went to the girl who had a crush on him birthday dinner with his friends. July, everything started to weigh on me because all he would say is I was fine and I need to stop overthinking. I overthought because we haven’t went on dates in 4 months and it’s like I was losing him. It’s august now and he broke it off with me near my birthday because he said all I did was complain about his wrongs. He said I’ll always have the bad things he do or say lingering in my head. It just hurts that a person I love calls me a embarrassment and crazy when I say what hurts me. I don’t know what to do and I’m tired of begging him to stay. I lost him and I literally cried for days. I don’t know what to do