Can't write essays without AI.

Yes, i know how much some people despise AI and want it completely gone from earth, but i can't bring myself to stop using it and now I keep getting worried about my future.

I used to absolutely hate AI as well, but i ended up using it once to help me complete my work, and now i can't stop. it was just an assignment i knew for certain that i was not going to be able to finish within the deadline, and i couldn't risk my grades dropping so i used a bit of ai to help me complete it. at first, i would just use it for little sections of my work when i had writers block and couldn't come up with anything to write. but now, the entirety of my work is completely generated using ai.

and for some reason, 15-year-old me decided it was okay because i wouldn't use writing in any job i end up working in, so it's okay that i use it. Now, 2 years later and ever since then, all of my English work like essays, Personal stories, etc, are generated using ai.

since i now rely on chat gpt to get my work done, i realized i can't write essays anymore. yesterday, i tried writing an introduction paragraph for a change and not use ai. but i couldn't come up with anything. i sat looking at my screen for about 20 minutes trying to come up with something but i couldn't. Now im starting to get worried, i used to be able to write really good but now chat gpt has taken it out of me. i just don't know what to do in terms of trying to get back my old writing style and not depending on cht gpt anymore.