Do you believe in god?

My life has become a complete shitshow. My family always asks me to pry saying gd will help me with difficult times. And i have practised that but it never made a difference, i prayed and asked for blessings. But it only went downhill for me, the more i prayed the shittier life went. The more desperately i needed blessing the less i got. So much shit people put me through who seem to enjoy their lives and i am suffering.

Now i dont feel presence of any energy or G*d. Seems like a big fat lie

Edit: so many people are saying how one is responsible for driving their lives which i agree but in that journey too you fumble and you struggle and you are given a hope of how your time will get better if you keep on believing and doing the right thing and shaping the life as you want. What people are missing is that taking control of your life and trying to do the right is already in place but the belief that someday you will reach the shore has faded. Also, so many people are pointing out that god is not genie granting you wishes which i agreed but i want to know all the people believing in god, what are you believing him for? I am trying to just understand here