i fucking hate my parents

so my parents sat me down today to give me the "dont be gay" talk (they dont know im gay) the first thing my dad said was "there comes a time in your life when you realize you have sexual organs and feel things down there" (im 15 btw) they then went on to explain how that's normal and everything and talked about their sex life (ew) then my dad said "sex can only be between a man and a women, yet there is a group of people out there who produce sexual propaganda that a man and a man can have sex and a woman and a women can have sex, dont let them confuse you" then my mom said "you are going through that mentality ill phase of your life where you might get depressed and think you're gay, those feelings can be confusing but just know that they aren't real" then my dad said "yes, yet some people still choose to be gay and live a life of sin and misery. homosexual relationships are toxic, never last, and are not real or valuable relationships." then i said "you really think being gay is a choice? did you just choose to like women?" then my dad said "yes exactly, i chose the right path and chose to be straight" (i actually laughed out loud and my parents looked at me weird) i then told them "i disagree with everything you just said" (which surprised them cuz i never talk back, but this was pissing me off so much i couldn't just say i agree with them) they then told me that there was no agreeing or disagreeing with anything bcuz "they know they're right" they then went on another 30 min rant about how the gay agenda is ruining america and blah blah blah. My parents kicked out my brother when he was my age after they found out he was gay, if they find out im a lesbian they would do the same to me. after this entire incident, i went to my room and cried so hard and relapsed after trying to stay clean. having my parents sit me down and basically say "you're not real, you're just mentally ill, confused, and living in a life of sin. we hate you" was the last straw. i already hate myself so having someone say "yeah i hate you too" makes me want to kill myself (thanks for reading <3)