losing my hair would be my 13th reason

I've always kinda had a big forehead and a weird hairline, but I think my mom's right. If I'm really losing my hair at 18 then I don't want to be alive because nothing else I do will ever matter. I'll never be cute, I'll never pass for a woman, I'll never be happy ever again so long as I still have the ability to see my reflection.

I haven't seriously planned on killing myself in a long time, but if she's right and my hairline is receding at 18, then I think I'd rather be dead within the year.