CF failure…

I am 4 months into my CF in a pediatric private practice. I came in to join the “feeding team”, my “mentor” that hired me, left before I even began. She promised to connect me with other mentors in the area but I have effectively been left in the dust. I have PFD experience and set my comfort range as 1yr+, not medically fragile (has been ignored).

My NEW “mentor” upon starting left the practice a month ago. I feel like since then I have just been launched head first into failure. I have back to back kids all day with no planning. I have AAC kids with no access to devices in the clinic. I stick to what I know with both speech and feeding kiddos but still am “reminded” by higher ups of concerns of parents that their kids aren’t making enough progress or that I don’t have good enough attendance, that I don’t seem to “enthusiastic” enough.

I feel like I just can’t win. I don’t have anyone to really turn to and I’m honestly embarrassed that maybe I am just not going to be a good SLP.