Battling maths fear and family pressure

Hi I'm a 24F, and I'm feeling utterly overwhelmed. Nothing seems to be going right in my life. I started preparing for the CDS exam, thinking it would be easier since math isn't a part of it, which is my weakest subject. Everyone around me said it would be a breeze to crack, but I scored 98, while the cutoff was around 100-103.

The emotional pressure from my parents was intense, so I took the next exam and cleared the cutoff. However, I couldn't crack the SSB, contemplating the probablity of getting into the merit list i thought to diversify my options, I began preparing for CGL, but my struggle with numbers persists. I perform well in other subjects, but math remains a challenge. I've had a math phobia since 6th grade due to a traumatic experience with an abusive teacher who used to jab her pen around my back for scoring low.

Despite knowing how to solve math problems, my fear of not being able to do so hinders my progress. My parents' criticism adds to my stress, saying, 'How can someone study with dedication and still fail to clear the exam? You're wasting your time and fooling us.. I'm trying my best to overcome this fear and improve my math skills.please guide coz when I sit at home and solve questions I could do it pretty quickly but when someone's constantly looking or i am around ppl i have this fear in me ki mujhse to nhi ho hoga ovsly..😭