Am I an alcoholic vent

I socially drink, but when I do I can't stop. I always go overboard. Sometimes, I don't remember how I get home or can even recall the night. My relationship is on the rocks right now, I believe it's due to my drinking. I don't think my drinking has caused issues in my past long term relationships either as I am thinking about it.

I have a hard time controlling myself when I drink too much I don't know when to stop once I start. I can become downright an ass hole or Im the nicest person when I'm inebriated. Sometimes my friends and partner don't like me when I drink heavy because of my actions, sometimes I'm extremely enjoyable to be around.

I don't know. I feel like I have been grinding down my current relationship with drinking. And I've been inadvertently and obliviously hurting my partner.

With my partner, we are going to have a conversation about re-evaluating our relationship and my drinking among other things. If we can't compromise I strongly believe we are breaking up and I will need to move out. I know I need to change for her and mostly for myself because I feel like I will be like a broken record in the future dealing with the same issue.

I didn't think I was an alcoholic until I met my partner. I've been drinking for 20 years now.