Musing of a new fan

I've been a fan for maybe a month now and here are some thoughts. Atm i'm max parasocial, on my periods, and so in love so bear with me please. will probably cringe at this tomm, but here goes nothing....

- my bias is chan, and tbh I only have hots for him. like I don't see any other member remotely sexually. my instinct is so platonic and even sibling-like with other members but I see chan go "boyfriend <3 <3".

- lee know is my soul mate. the cat dad, the tsundere personality, the sharp reflexes, oof. he is such a scorpio, i love watching his vlogs, he makes "regular" look endearing. one day I teared up thinking what if he didn't become an idol and remained a back-up dancer. but then if we think about it, lee know is the kind of guy who would find contentment regardless. i think he values small things, the nature, the solitude, his love is calm and sure. if I get protective vibes from chan, then lee know makes me feel at peace. (side note: his visuals are underrated, brands are sleeping on this face)

- changbin. i think he is the glue of the team. he provides comic relief, he produces, his rap prowess is the type that can't be taught. sue me but this guy adds the most to team chemistry. he is the variety show king, there is something so cute about a rap machine who is also a secret member of every girl group. he has the sense of humor to take jokes, which only comes from true self confidence.

there was this one episode where the members were getting pranked on accusations of sajaegi and even though changbin didn't fall for it, I could see that he was affected regardless. the man was PISSED. even the idea of sajaegi was not okay with him and the way he told the actor-detective to mind his tone gave me chills. If changbin was my brother, I would never be scared of anything ever.

- hyunjin: listen, the boy is hot and he knows it. the lip bites and the bedroom eyes are not accidents. hyunjin biases are spoiled for real. with that body and face, he can remain a top idol by doing bare minimum but it is impressive how he has this urge to be more than a pretty face and has proven the same. it may sound cheesy but you can look at his art and know the depth of his emotions. he was excited to see marina abramovic at the versace show, the man of culture.

(maybe I'm overreaching here, but i think he is most vulnerable to negativity. he wears his heart on the sleeve. and idk why but he seems a little bothered these days, maybe it was his reaction to weird v-live comments.... i just hope he feels enough and is healthy.)

- han: just one word ACE. no notes. he is my favorite member. (his aussie aussie aussie chant during charmer lives in my head rent free.) the quokka wrote "cooking like a chef i'm a 5 star Michelin" and trolled a whole fandom, where will you find this artistry... may all his hugs get reciprocated and if he feels uneasy someone holds his hands till he feels better.

- felix: I know people throw the world "sunshine" to every idol who is remotely chirpy, but seriously felix is sunshine. the type of sunshine that breaks the depressive spell, like GOLDEN. I mean if I was a plant I would literally grow and do photosynthesis if someone played his videos near me lol. his smile reaches his eyes, I have never seen him snarky. it makes full sense why no one is mean to him, because he is so precious.

(i was watching his vlog where he surprised his sister in Australia and that whole video make me tear up. as someone from a very closed off family, his easy affection made me homesick for another world.)

- seungmin: you know when they say "watch out for the quiet ones", they mean people like him. my brother in christ is a menace and sweetheart. if lee know will cook you in air fryer, it is this puppy who will roast and gaslight you till you accept your fate. i think south Korean variety shows are too loud and pompous to appreciate seungmin's subtle humor, it was only after seeing some SKZ content that I could appreciate his understated charms. he is also so mature/smart, like the guy will never be in paboracha. members love him so much, I hope he accepts this love more generously.

- I.N: okay listen, the boy has a unique voice. other than felix's low baritone, I pick up IN's vocals next. this happened after I moved away from their main hits and listened more. I'm still trying to place lyrics to members while listening to skz but when its IN and felix I just know. and man this boy has 8 people whipped. IN didn't catch my attention first, and then I saw him being doted on left and right and after some time, it made sense. he is adorable and he has a very grounding presence (bro respectfully gives anti-delulu treatment), he is observant based on the 2 kids show commentary, and is the most "normal" of the lot. with his solo stage baby bread is now a hot toast.