I just want a boyfriend :(

Other people are so cute in their relationships, almost all of my friends are dating and im sitting here with the closest thing to a relationship is being manipulated into having sex with a guy and a long distance relationship wich ended terribly, like, i just want someone who actually cares for me, but i will never get a boyfriend, cause the only gay people in my area are all lesbian and bi girls, no gay dudes around, sorry for the rant, just needed to put it out somewhere (nsfw for mention of emotional manipulation and sex) Edit: im not gonna accept any dating request from this post, cause I’ve tried long distance relationships before, and i just can’t do them