Supervisor Rant and advice

I have been at the same private practice since being an intern and it’s been less than 4 years.

I have been going back and forth about different emotions about my supervisor . The reason is I feel like I owe it to them for hiring me as an intern and continuing over. The supervisor happens to be the owner too. One of the main reasons that I wanted to work with her is because of her experience and because I am interested in writing and she publishes articles with different publications which is something I wanted to do. A number of things pop up: -such as her reminding the employees and me during supervision that she has a lot on her plate and we don’t know what happens behind as she runs the businesss she says that randomly -when I request time off she likes to remind she worked so hard and it would be easy to just see 25-30 clients and new clinicians don’t want to work much and she brags about how she was when she first started - she likes to be introduced as the owner not as a coworker with other therapist . She wants it known she is the owner as if coworker is an insult - She talks about how much expenses there are ( I don’t get benefits, she only pays for online platform for us. We do our own billing. Because she has someone who is part time to process insurance and pays for the office space)
- I have asked her numerous times on how to get started with publications and what training do I need and she said to just reach out to people she doesn’t know because they contact her - She keeps talking about her clients always coming back and she is one of the best therapists out there - She has given me advice with cases and when I follow through with those advice and my clients react negative .she says she did not mean it like that which is confusing when she tells me “say this or do that “ - I asked advice on trainings to do or how to get sources she tells me just check pesi - She likes to mention how successful she is - She also blurs the line for me because I don’t know what is right or wrong. She has called me to tell me a few things and would say I don’t want it to be documented or keep paper trails - She is so supportive via email and talks about how you can reach out to her if need be but when you do it’s like being scolded and is different in person (which I think is interesting with her belief of paper trail) - Another coworker has told me she is obnoxious and I see why …. - She complains about lack of profit but she takes 50% and has a number of unpaid interns - She has threatened to charge therapist of credit card transaction fees but didn’t call it a threat and said it’s because the fees add up and we should charge it once a week for the number of sessions we see a client - She likes to brag about how she knows every other owner of a private practice and she is well Connected (which worries me if I want to leave) - A few coworkers are leaving the business and she is now worried and keeps asking others what they need (feels ingenuine ) and a bit too late

I think the main thing that bothers me is her feedback/advice on cases and then how she turns it to something amazing she did with another client and then when you follow through on the advice and if it’s a negative reaction she says I didn’t say that or I meant something else. The other thing too is I do not trust her if she’s a person who doesn’t want to keep paper trails and presents differently on email for example. I am worried about what to do and feel so burned out. Can someone share their thoughts?

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