i don’t feel like a girl

it’s funny when i hear men be like if i was a girl i’d do this or wear that, like me too. My body isn’t female. only the between my legs part is female. The rest is an ugly mess of a little boy. its impossible for me to have attractive female friends because i’m inferior next to them and i can’t stand it. the world wasn’t made for ugly girls. everybody cares about sex so much, especially men. but women care too. it’s a myth that girls hate beautiful girls. They want to be friends with them, even if they’re jealous. That’s how human nature works. everywhere i go i get reminded how i’m supposed to look like but how i don’t. Every form of media. Every casual male conversation. it’s like the whole world is about women’s bodies and sex. that’s on top of love which is something i’ll never get either.