too ugly to go out

I just had a general question for those who also feel the ugly gene, do you ever plan to go out then get snapped back into reality that you really shouldn't due to the way you look? like it's just gonna be a gut punch getting ready, two more choosing an outfit and you're lucky if you arent crying by that point. Having a lot of moments where I laugh at myself genuinely believing I could plan to go out somewhere and then remembering no one wants to look at that and I won't be able to have a good time feeling so ugly and constantly thinking of what they're seeing either. Didnt want to poll anyone close to me because you get the same feedback of loving yourself and being beautiful inside and out, I just want an honest response if anyone else ever feels this way