Losing empathy

Hey, this is a heavy topic for me. So. I(20) have been living mainly vegan for several years now. I grew up with a vegetarian mother who raised me to respect animals and was in touch with several animal rights organizations. I always loved animals so much, I still do (i think). When I was a child i always got very upset over animal cruelty, e.g. one time my mother told me a terrifying story about baby kitties being brutally beaten to death and I cried so much. Also the living conditions in factory farms always scared me which lead me to become vegetarian and later vegan. However nowadays I must admit that I have become sorta... I don't wanna say unfazed because i still care but i feel like it's more of a cognitive type of empathy rather than feeling directly affected.

And i feel so guilty about thinking that because I know these animals are not doing alright at all but i don't feel that strongly about it anymore. Like...i feel like even the average meat eaters who watch dominion for the first time feel stronger about that

I may have become numb and it is scaring me. I don't wanna become a sociopath or sum. Ik part of me still loves animals and cares a lot about them but not as much as I used to do.

I wonder why that is. Ik that we live in a society that punishes empathy. Could it be that it's my brain's way of coping with the fact that I have been ridiculed for my empathy so much that I have started to repress it until i started lacking it?

(I'm not stopping being vegan/plant based tho... I still feel obligated to continue this journey)

Edit: Thank you all for those nice and reassuring comments! I feel a little relieved now