I developed trigger finger

Idk if this is the right place for it, but I gotta get it out of my system.

Video games are my life. There's nothing I'm more passionate about than gaming and the people who game. IDK what I would do if I couldn't game.

Recently I've developed a disability in both my hands called trigger finger. It must have been exacerbated from playing vr games for long periods and gripping the controllers way too hard. I can't unbend my middle fingers anymore, and apparently the only fixes are a shot that (from what I understand) ruins your tendons in the long run, or hand surgery which scares the absolute fuck out of me. Trusting someone to cut the muscles in my fingers and potentially destroy my motor functions. I'd have to ask a doctor how risky it is, maybe I'm being dramatic.

I know there's more serious medical issues, but I'm honestly just scared or sad or idk at the thought of my fingers being unusable and not being able to game the way I do now. I've met my friends through gaming, I expeess my passions through gaming, and I relate to people through gaming.

My dad didnt get trigger finger until he was like 70 and I already have it in my 30's. Probably should have looked into my hands being sore after VR.

Anyways, sorry if journal entries / venting aren't allowed in this subreddit. Feel free to delete this.