I CAN’T STAND MY MOTHER

so yeah, i hate my mom. i’ve always disliked her but ive grown to hate her over the last 4ish years. constantly venting to me, a 17 year old, about things that SHE got herself into. she has no job and leeches off her parents like she’s in high school. constantly belittling me for every little thing i do & when i do something good it’s just “well it’s about time”.

i started primarily living with my boyfriend when i was 16 & i’ve never been better. besides the fact that now it’s just constant arguments between my mom & i. i stopped putting up with the 24/7 disrespect & she sees that as me trying to rebel. she’s mad at me right now since i didn’t want to wait 2 hours for my grandpa to get home from work yesterday when it was valentine’s day as well as mine & my bfs 2 year anniversary so we had plans.

also about a month ago she got up in my bfs face and was about to hit him until i got between them. all he did was ask her to stop screaming at me (bc i didn’t want to grocery shop for her when i don’t even live there) & she took it to the absolute extreme. we both left and haven’t been back since this incident & at first we didn’t speak to each other for a few weeks but now it’s back to “normal”-one second she’s mad at me and the next she’s trying to spark up a conversation. i’ve gotten to the point where i just don’t answer.

she’s been this way my entire life always screaming at me, getting drunk, & leaving me for random men. i now know that she will never change, & if she does it’s only for a week tops then we go right back down the hole.

idk i just really needed to vent bc i literally can’t stand to even hear her voice or see her handwriting atp. i cannot wait until i turn 18 so i can genuinely never look back. but for the next 8 months i guess i will keep going through this cycle & resent her more each day.