Coming to terms with my diagnosis

I was diagnosed at age 14 ikr super early I was in disbelief for years and I said how the doctors where wrong even though I’ve been institutionalized dozens of times in 2023 I had the worse manic episode of my life that lasted upwards of 6 months that followed a depression episode that lasted just about the same and after that I realized maybe the doctor was right and I finally got back on my meds I’m 20 now and finally on meds that work and I’m feeling amazing and I’m wondering why I was in denial for so long. I have so much regret and I wish I just believed them and got on those damn meds. I’m doing better now but I hate mania and I’m terrified of going through another manic episode that lasts that long again. I have had them before obviously but never that long so praying these meds work for me. Anyone else get diagnosed super early?